Thursday, May 27, 2010
One thing we have learned... when trials cause us to hold things (money, jobs, possessions, our health, friends, even members of our family) more loosely we have the opportunity to prove that Jesus is an invaluable treasure. An onlooking world can see that Jesus is of utmost value when we prize Him more than the other things in our lives and especially when we prize him despite loosing the "other things" in our lives. We desire to testify to this with all our hearts.
But sometimes it is hard. Tuesday was a rough day. I was feeling weary. Not just of the trial but of trying to make it through the trial steadfastly. I became prone to worry and was tempted to question. I think it was a rough day for Jbabe too.
God, help us hold all your gifts loosely so that we may be held more closely by YOU.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
For months now I have been going through the process, with Jason and some very dear friends, to be a surrogate. The Lord had so clearly laid it on our hearts to help give life to their baby. The process has been long. My body hasn't done what the doctors say is typical. Weeks turned into months... appointments, medicine, injections... and lots of prayers.
Finally, we had the transfer and got positive pregnancy results. there was such rejoicing that despite the difficulties, God had chosen to give life to this little babe. I was 6 weeks this week - looking forward to the 30 plus to come. Unfortunately I ended up on my bedroom floor writhing in pain this past Tuesday. I kept texting Jason telling him the pain wouldn't stop. He came home and after 3 hours of horrible pain I started bleeding. We went to ER.
The radiologist couldn't find anything via ultrasound in the uterus but only a mass on my left ovary. The pregnancy had become ectopic and the baby was growing in the fallopian tube near the ovary. I had to go right in for surgery where the baby and my left fallopian tube were removed.
There is grief with the loss of this life and in the loss of my sweet friend's dream. My heart is so heavy for them. But there is rejoicing in the faithfulness of our great God. My loving heavenly Father kept my mind fixed on Him - through the pain, the tears, and the myriad of thoughts while being rolled into an operating room, He called me to cast my cares on Him and reminded me that His ways are higher than my own.
SO for now we grieve - but not as those who have no hope. We trust in the Father's plans and say "The Lord gives and the Lord takes away... Blessed be the name of the Lord."
Monday, May 17, 2010
All the kids were in "Oh The Thinks You Can Think" from Suessical the Musical...
Cole even had a solo part. He did so great! Not to mention the girl next to him in the show was sick that night so he had to do her solo last minute and he was fantastic!!!
She starts by saying "God, make my life a little light within the world to glow..."
Friday, May 14, 2010
Pipster came out so proud of herself - looking clown like - wanting nothing more than to put a kiss mark on my face (like I do to her). It was very sweet.
I'm sure all my telling her that she was not supposed to do that sunk in right after I laughed and grabbed my camera and had her pose for a pictures. Oh well, I'll really let her have it next time. :)
Monday, May 10, 2010
Two of my FAVORITE new things are new makeup and new school supplies. Oh they just make me inspired!! And since we just had the homeschool convention I have some new curriculum. To this day if you give me a pretty new notebook, a new sharpened pencil and a protractor I'll pump out some Geometry for you. I can't resist. Writing teachers who have difficulties getting their students to write should just buy them pretty new notebooks every month. :)
Anyways - we started all our new math books this week. I loved opening the packaging and stacking the books and just looking at them (knowing that they will only look new like this for so long). And the kids have been just as excited as me - wanting to hold their book and look at it and even excited to delve into a new year of school - I know, school all year, just call me mommy dearest.
SO, pardon me as I think I need to go open that new tube of lipstick to make the day complete.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
SO - here we go...
- we got a dog. No, hell has not frozen over and I haven't seen any pigs flying but I finally gave in. The Lord actually convicted my heart about keeping my kids and husband from having something they wanted so terribly. The story of how we got her and how we gave her to the kids is great - but you do remember that I said I'm not blogging all the stuff that had already happened - right? SO you'll just have to ask another time. Her name is Lola. She is a sweet (yes, I actually said sweet) chihuahua. She is full grown but TEEEENY!
- Easter - Good Friday stations of the cross. Easter worship service. Everyone looked cute. My Mom and Dad came in town. Ate at P.F. Changs. Worshipped our risen Savior.
- The kids think it's super cool for me to pass them their food or desserts out this window in the kitchen to them on the back porch (I think it's kinda cool too). It's like our own little drive thru window.
- School year - wrapped up. Kids know WAY MORE about Africa (from first month of school) than they do about Europe (from the last month). But don't you look sideways at me. As an adult I realized I knew NOTHING about the World Wars - know why? They are at the back of the book and teachers never got to them!! I'm not the only one. But that's not really an excuse, is it? All right - we will do some summer school.
...Which brings me to today. We had our end of year party with our FANTASTIC co-op... Continental Kids. I know I've blabbed and blabbed about our love for this group. It's still all true. Couldn't be more blessed and pleased to be a part of it.
I love this picture of Madison wither her buddy, Maddy. The friendships all these kids have will truly be treasured for years to come...